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Think I always surprise myself with random flashbacks at the most unlikely timings. I read a quote somewhere saying that missing someone doesn’t mean you need them in your life again, its part of the process of getting over. How true that is. It kind of sucks when your always surrounded by your beautiful friends and can’t help but wonder if anyone is gg to notice you that way again.  I know I sound damn insecure and childish and I try not to compare, everyone is beautiful in their own way. But then again we live in a world that focuses on outward appearance isn’t it? Its hard sometimes. I haven’t felt such insecurity in awhile, maybe because I knew there was someone who appreciated me for who I am. Now I guess I have to live with it. Does all this attention matter anyway? What matters most is that I have a God that loves me more than anyone can, and I don’t need to stand out in a crowd for him to notice me. Sometimes I really feel like I learn better the hard way. 

2Cor 12:10- “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”

Its sad to see people validating their existence by being someone else’s commodity